[ Rin shakes her head at Lust's first statement, although when the more mature woman moves in closer and drapes her tail over Rin, the armless naga leans into it.
She's still warm, for the record. Her first changes had been pretty severe, but Rin's core body temperature makes it clear that her changes aren't complete yet.]
I-I'm not that, though. Strong.
[This isn't the first time she's had to tell that to someone. Strength and perseverance are traits that people just apply to her for some reason.
The truth of the latter is that she really isn't strong. Not from her own perspective, at least. She doesn't confront things or excel under pressure; honestly, with the exception of her time as a goblin, she's just barely been scraping by in Ryslig. And not even very well, judging by the number of times she's died.
And while it's true that she's been cheated, Rin can't even bring herself to feel anger towards Tikbalang about it. Or, not much anger, at least. This hasn't been the first time that she's bought a transformation she's bought off of him that ended poorly, after all. It's really hard for her to blame anyone but herself for how terribly things have gone. ]
And it's not going to pass. I'm going to be stuck like this forever. [ She let's out another sob and leans closer to Lust. ] I never should have tried to change again. I should have figured that this'd happen. I'm so stupid.
[ Being a Shade had been so difficult, but at least she still felt like some semblance of herself in that form. On some level she had to have known that this was a possibility, of course, but she had been too enticed by the possibility of going back to her wonderful goblin body to take the risks into serious consideration.
She's a little angry at someone else as well, though she doesn't bother voicing this thought. The Fog God. For reacting so harshly to the Mountain's gift. For changing her back from a goblin into a shade - if it hadn't done that, she never would have made this stupid transaction to begin with.
When she opens her mouth to try to say as much, though, all that comes out is an angry, hurt sob as the tears stream down her face. Her breath is shaky as she places her face into the nearest part of Lust - her tail- and continues to cry.]
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She's still warm, for the record. Her first changes had been pretty severe, but Rin's core body temperature makes it clear that her changes aren't complete yet.]
I-I'm not that, though. Strong.
[This isn't the first time she's had to tell that to someone. Strength and perseverance are traits that people just apply to her for some reason.
The truth of the latter is that she really isn't strong. Not from her own perspective, at least. She doesn't confront things or excel under pressure; honestly, with the exception of her time as a goblin, she's just barely been scraping by in Ryslig. And not even very well, judging by the number of times she's died.
And while it's true that she's been cheated, Rin can't even bring herself to feel anger towards Tikbalang about it. Or, not much anger, at least. This hasn't been the first time that she's bought a transformation she's bought off of him that ended poorly, after all. It's really hard for her to blame anyone but herself for how terribly things have gone. ]
And it's not going to pass. I'm going to be stuck like this forever. [ She let's out another sob and leans closer to Lust. ] I never should have tried to change again. I should have figured that this'd happen. I'm so stupid.
[ Being a Shade had been so difficult, but at least she still felt like some semblance of herself in that form. On some level she had to have known that this was a possibility, of course, but she had been too enticed by the possibility of going back to her wonderful goblin body to take the risks into serious consideration.
She's a little angry at someone else as well, though she doesn't bother voicing this thought. The Fog God. For reacting so harshly to the Mountain's gift. For changing her back from a goblin into a shade - if it hadn't done that, she never would have made this stupid transaction to begin with.
When she opens her mouth to try to say as much, though, all that comes out is an angry, hurt sob as the tears stream down her face. Her breath is shaky as she places her face into the nearest part of Lust - her tail- and continues to cry.]